It’s crazy to think that, due to my stupid cancer, my quality of life basically hinges on the effect of this pill, which I must take every morning for the rest of my life. It’s even more crazy to think that when the hormones this pill gives me aren’t properly balanced, I feel like sweet honey coated death. They call it “hypo hell” for a reason. It really is hell. I am having a very difficult time, and I don’t anticipate that changing anytime soon. I go to the cancer doctor in the beginning of May and I’m not thinking that my general feeling will change anytime soon, especially not if he starts my treatment ASAP like I’m hoping. It’s just going to get worse and worse until it’s over.
It’s hard. This tiny pill controls so much from joint aches, to hair falling out, to the ability to remember what the hell I’m saying half way through a sentence and more. Much more. It takes almost all my will just to make it to the store, much less figure out what I’m saying in a review. For example, it took me HOURS to write yesterday’s review because I had such a hard time remembering … anything. I never have that issue unless I’m in “hypo hell.” Then I get all frustrated and pissed because this is just a reminder of this stupid disease that’s happily living in my neck.
Anyway, enough of that. It’s time for me to take a break for a few days. I have one more review to post, which will go up on Friday (for Scourge of the Betrayer) and then on the 30th (my birthday, as it happens), I’ll announce the winner of my giveaway and then I’ll let you know about May’s event. Thankfully, I was thinking far enough into the future to realize that this would probably happen, so I organized an event wherein my blog will be fed by wonderful authors and bloggers and their fantastic guest posts.
Which is to say, to those of you (bloggers, eh hem), who have agreed to be part of this event, I need your submissions by SUNDAY. I am going to be honest with you, I just don’t have the energy to bug people with reminders or anything like that right now, so consider this your friendly reminder. If I don’t have all the guest posts by bloggers on Sunday, I’m going to reformat my “theme month” and do a “theme week” with just authors instead. Either way, it’ll be great, and I’m thrilled to have a break so I can just sit here and relax and try to feel somewhat alive.
So, to my dear readers, look for a review on Friday, and then check back on Monday for the announcement of the really neat event I’ve been planning, courtesy of people who were kind enough to take time out of their lives to write some really neat stuff specifically for you.